Intimidation!!

I thought these showers. could wash away.all the filth you seem to have left on me.I thought one smile could make me forget all the pain, and my silly regrets. letting you into my life. thinking you were one of a kind...I make such silly mistakes, I've never been one to waste. but now I realize, everything I've ever given to you... all the time that I've invested things that I could never get back. it's all wasted.HELP ME!! I need saving, this isn't a game I'm playing...it's real life and you've left my heart on the line - Will you stay behind this time and pick up the mess you've made? of course not, because you don't care
I wish I didn't either...