Thursday, October 28, 2010

New Cubbie!

I Had a new little Cubbie last night...He said some of the cutest things! I just thought I'd share with you.

We were coloring, and he said "Please pass the Chocolate"... I looked around the room, very confused. Then turned to him, "We don't have any chocolate boo??"... He got up from his chair, walked over to the tub with the markers, and picked up the brown one... looking very accomplished, He flashed it in my face saying "Yes, you do, see it's in mines hand!".... How cute! he calls brown Chocolate....

Well, this was my second time to have this little guy in cubbies, his first week he told me, that his name was 'Dingus'... Which seemed a little odd to me. After talking with some others in the church (Jill) I discovered that his name was 'Maddox'... Well, last night, in cubbies, we were talking about friends, and family. And I started to ask him, about his friends. I mentioned his Brother, who he came with, Brendan, and he said "No, he is my Aunt, not my friend..." (Precious!!!)

Anyways, I just thought that I'd share that! I love that little guy, He's adorable... :))

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

He thinks I'm beautiful.

You think I'm beautiful,
-when I've cried all my make-up away.
- when I'm having a bad hair day.
-when I was too lazy, to get ready...

and when I go on, and on, about girls in movies, their hair,
their smile,
their eyes,
you lean in, to whisper in my ear, that to you, I look just fine...

you don't think less of me, because I look less than a celebrity.
you say that you fell in love with me, fo rmy personality, my looks are just a bonus.

and that's enough to make this girl feel like a princess.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Excuse me...

Excuse me, for being jealous..

Excuse me, for the words I said, excuse me for all my sorry excuses, I guess this morning I should have just stayed in bed...

Excuse me, for not understanding, It's my self that I dread...This is no fault of yours, I'll take all the blame, just as long as you don't leave me.

Excuse me, for my ignorance, I never should have traded it, for my innocence.
Excuse me, for always feeling so alone, when it's so obvious, you've got me- You'd never leave me to do this on my own.
Excuse me, for trying to get your attention, when it's obvious, I've had it all along.

Excuse me, for still humming that same old song. I need to learn to let go.

Excuse me, for always wanting to be mentioned, wanting to be the center of attention, when it's obvious, I'm all you think about.

Excuse me, for this heart of mine, that seems to always be filled with doubt.
Excuse me, for whatever I'm all worked up about, sometimes I wish that I could just figure all this out.
Excuse me, Please... Just excuse me

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

This is not my first rodeo,
This isn't the first time I've fallen in love with someone who promised to be my romeo.
This isn't the first time I've had a hard time saying goodbye,
This isn't the first time I've had tears falling from my eyes, over something cliche' or something trite.
This isn't my first show, not the first time, I've had to be a big girl, and let go.
Yeah, you heard me,
This isn't my first show. I've been the main attraction of the freak show before, I've been fighting this battle, with empty hands, but now, I have a sword...Come back, I'll beat you down. If you think I'm kidding, give me a chance, and we'll find out. because
This isn't the first time, I've had to stick up for myself.

You seem to think that you hold the cards, you seem to think that you're in control. But I have some say in this. I'm the woman in this situation, you're no longer in charge.
I can make my own choices, and they don't have to involve you. I've hid this fact so long, I was afraid to admit it was true, but now I know your game, I've got some new tricks, they're no match for yours, but they'll provide a fair fight, if nothing else, a little more time.
You've been a huge part of me for so long. I had told my self, the better part.... but you were the reason that I chose not to be strong, because I learned to cope, I made you my source of false hope, then when you left, a piece of me did too. I fell to the ground. Not knowing what to do. Now I'm getting up, and I'm doing this without you, I'll show you I can be strong, I can rock your world too.
I'm shaking off the dust, and putting on my smile. No looking back, I'm moving on. I'm a new woman, no longer a child.
Let's hope this lasts, because I never want to feel the way you made me feel again....

When did we lose the right to feel?
the freedom to speak..?
the ability to heal?

What's happening to us? What have we done?
Why can't we learn to love? Why can't we do as we say, and learn to build each other up? Why can't we set our fighting aside? why can't we learn to stand brave and tall, instead of always trying to hide?
why can't we sit up strait, instead of always falling and why can't we learn to listen when you're calling?

why do we ignore you?
when was it that we learned to go around you?
When did we lose hold of all we once had? And when did it become so easy to avoid change, by simply being mad?

Monday, October 18, 2010

I'll hide my eyes from you, so you won't see the tears, I'll wear this half smile, so you won't have any reason, to fear, that I'm not alright- Because afterall, I'm supposed to carry you.

I'm a big girl. So, I'll carry this weight on my own...It's hard, but I've been given an enduring heart, I'll fight for this cause, till I've helped those around me to turn on all the lights, in their lives, Then Maybe I'll turn to you, and let you see these blod-shot eyes, just don't be disappointed when they're filled with tears, Because even the strongest of girls, can't do everything....And break down, and cry.